.....Falling in Love.....at the Wrong Time.....

2007 was a new year for me and my boyfriend. When January entered I felt that our love for each other have already fade away. Maybe because he is always admiring a certain classmate of him and a friend of mine. I felt that he do not love me anymore. I felt that he long love from that girl rather than seeking love from me, his girlfriend. I seek for advices from my friends. Some told me to cut the strings attached between us while some says that it is better to talk to him and tell him my problem and on what I really feel.

One day, I was busy talking about this thing with my friend Kim while the my boyfriend was busy practicing for the legacy of our fast approaching Junior and Senior promenade. While we were talking tears run down my face. I can not believe it, I cried for just a guy. I wiped out the tears but my watery eyes was still obvious and noticeable that is why a guy friend approach me. This guy happened to be the hatest guy of my boyfriend. This guy asked me why am I sad. I told him the whole story. After hearing my side, he told me that what my boyfriend did was wrong, he was not supposed to admire other girl in front of me. He comforted me by saying many things, words of wisdom. He told me his problem regarding his family, on what happened to his mother. He made me laugh with his jokes. I felt comfort with him. Our closeness began that day.

One time while we were talking, he told me that it is possible that he might fall in love with me. I took his words seriously. Knowing this did not affect our closeness. It even strengthen our relationship. I am happy with him and maybe I will always be happy with him. We always talk even during classes. We eat together at breaktime. I spent much time with him than with my boyfriend. My boyfriend noticed our closeness and asked me if I can stop befriending that boy because he do not like this boy. It was hard for me to stop talking with this boy but I know that I should to protect the relationship between my boyfriend and me. I confronted the guy and I asked him if what he really feels for me. He answered me:"I do not know, I am not yet sure". After hearing this, I told him to prevent his feeling before its to late. But he misunderstood what I said. He thought that I was telling him to keep distance from me. But I really did not. After we talked he did not talked to me anymore. Everytime he sees me he always pretended that he did not see me. I am like a ghost to him. I do not like what is already happening. I felt that I am missing him. I felt that I long for him.

Maybe.... maybe I am already falling out of love. Falling in love at the wrong time.