10 years from now.....

I am the one shaping my future. But I believed God has already planned the things that will happen to me in my life here on earth. HE knows everything about us, how will I come into being, when will I die and ofcourse, how will I die.

Because God is the only one who knows what will I be in the future I am so curious on what will I really be 10 years from now. I imagined myself with a certain profession 10 years from now. I imagined myself as a succesful nurse... maybe. A nurse because that is what my parents want for me and I also like taking this challenging profession. Actually, I had just took an entrance exam in the Cebu Normal University last December 2006. And this late January 2007 I got the result. Oh, thank God I passed. I was informed that I passed the exam via telephone call from CNU. I was very, very thankful to HIM. Honestly, I did not expect that I will pass the exam because I find it hard. Time is also a hindrance for me and that is why I was not able to finish some part of the test. I thought after passing the exam I will not have any problem anymore but alas! There is still an interview. I was told to wear a formal dress. I took the interview on a Wednesday. Because it is a Wednesday, I was forced to absent in the afternoon. I wore a formal dress thinking that I can not wear the school uniform. But in arriving I saw students from other school, just wearing their school uniform. How I wish I had just wore my school uniform because I am not really comfortable wearing a skirt. I think I look like a "manang" with what I wore that day. I was really nervous that time reminiscing on what question will be asked and if the person who will interview me is nice or whatsoever. During the interview I was asked to introduce myself and some things about me. At first I was nervous because the one who interviewed me looks like "isnabera" but I was wrong he was really nice and pleasant. He also asked me if my parents can support my schooling and ofcourse I answered him "yes" because my father is an office clerk at Dubai. He also asked me if what are my talents and what sports do I usually play. After that he stopped for a while and wrote something in a piece of paper. After writing, He handed me the paper and told me to to answer the 3 questions on the paper orally in 3 minutes. The questions were: Who sent you a card, when was that card sent, and why was that card special for you. I answered the question with all my heart even if I seem suffering of a nosebleed because I am not really good in speaking English. After the interview he handed me an answer sheet which he said to be answered only by our guidance counselor and to be placed inside a mailing envelope.

Honestly, I find the interview answerable and easy. I really had fun answering the questions being asked. I just hope that I can pass that interview so that I can study a nursing course at a respectable and known University so that 10 years from now I am already a nurse.

JS PROMENADES IMPORTANCE TO STUDENTS

I was an elementary student when I first heard about promenades. I learned about promenades because I used to watch teen shows like "Click" and "Tabing Ilog". After watching their shows regarding promenades the first thing that came out of my mind was: Is promenade relevant to students like me? My answer then was: Promenades are just a waste of time and money.

Promenades are waste of time because instead of studying, I would be very busy preparing for what to wear and how to make myself presentable and pretty for the coming event. I also need money for what I will wear and for the make up artist. I need money for a taxi ride. But I know that promenades also have something good to share to students.

Last year, February 17, 2006, was my first time to experience a real promenade. It was held in a known hotel in the Philippines, the Waterfront Hotel at Lahug, Cebu City. The venue was just a few distance away from my school, the University of the Philippines. Before that event our guidance counselor taught us different table etiquette. She also taught us how to behave properly in a formal occasion which I think I was not used to. Because of what I learned from her I realized that promenades really have a good effect on us students. During the promenade, I learned how to be a lady, a presentable lady with all the good character of a woman. I used the proper table etiquette which I learned like using different spoons and fork of different sizes. I also realized that promenades are also a perfect time to make new friends. I was able to communicate with my partner and with other year levels. This really made me happy because I am really fond in mingling with other people.

After the promenade, I realized that the money and the time I spent was really worth it. By this event, I did not only learned some social etiquette but I also learn how to make new friends and to enjoy their company. I realized that promenades are really relevant for students like me.

"THE LOOK"

THE LOOK

Strephon kissed me in the spring,
Robin in the fall,
But Colin only looked at me
And never kissed me at all

Strephon’s kiss was lost in jest,
Robin’s lost in play,
But the kiss in Colin’s eyes
Haunts me night and day.

-Sara Teasdale-

Each one of us has his or her own way of loving people. For some people, they show their love to someone by giving that someone gifts of any kind as long as it makes them happy. Others just spend time with their love ones so that they may express to them how important they are. Aside from these different styles of loving people, the most common style of expressing their love is through kissing. We cannot deny the fact that kissing is the easiest way to express your love to someone. But would it be nice if you will show your love to someone in another way? Would it be great to express your love to someone far different from the way other people do it?


In the poem, one can see that there are three men who are deeply in love with a girl. These three men are all hoping for the girl to love them in return. In order for the girl to love them in return, they decided to express their love for her. Strephon was the first to express his love for her since it was said that he did it in the spring. Robin was the second since fall comes after spring. Colin was the last to kiss but his kiss is not like the common kisses that we see everyday. He used his eyes in kissing, which not very normal to people. Even though his kiss was the weirdest, it was the one that struck the girl really hard. The kisses that Strephon and Robin gave were all lost in jest and in play. It never brought any significance to the girl. It was as if nothing has happened. What does this imply? Does this mean that the girl likes Colin more?
Well, we are not so sure about that. But what is important is that we get to know the reason why the girl was haunted by Colin’s actions. If I were to interpret the poem, I believe that the reason behind such reaction is the uniqueness of what Colin did. He did not kiss the girl the way the other men did. Colin’s action also shows that his love was a respectful kind of love. He showed to the girl that it is not only in kissing that true love can be seen. He showed that love is also shown in the meaning of the actions and not just mere actions only.


Going back to the uniqueness part, as what I have said, it is not the normal type. But being not normal does not mean that loving itself is not normal. Majority of the people who are in love are crazy. Not crazy medically, but somehow psychologically. They are crazy in such a way that they do the weirdest stuffs just to make their love ones happy. As shown in the poem, Colin was indeed crazy, crazy for the girl because who in the world would kiss the girl through his eyes? If there would be one, would you agree that he is crazy?


In the respectful part, it is pretty obvious that his kiss was not the physical type. It is not the type wherein lips are used. What does this imply? It was said in the poem that the girl was haunted by Colin’s action. Therefore, Colin’s action had a significant effect on the girl. If it had a significant effect on the girl, then it would imply that in order to express your love for a person, one does not need physical contact such as kissing. All the person has to do is just mean his actions and love accordingly, even if it is crazy for some people.

The Problem With Men or Women is that......

I remember the day when our Health teacher asked us who are better, men or women. Actually, I do not know which of the two sexes is better because each plays a different and important role in our society. Men as practiced are the one responsible in supporting his family. In other words he should find job fit for him and a job with enough salary. But women nowadays can also do this things. But one thing a man can not do is... to give birth. But they also contributes on giving birth to another individual. Now let us go to the exact side of this post. What is really the problem of men or women? I know it is difficult to answer especially if you did not have any chance to interact with the opposite sex. But for me it is just easy. I can even name more than one problem of each sexes. I know some of the problems of the two sexes because I am close to both sexes. I will just mention one problem with men or women, problems which I think the most important to tackle.


One important problem with men is that they know how to hide what they really feel. Even though it is already obvious that they are carrying something heavy inside, they can still manage to hide it and keep it just with themselves. They can be "plastic" if they want to. Because they know how to hide their feeling they seldom cry. That is one thing I do not like about them, they seldom cry. It is really unfair to us women. Some say that a man is not man if he cries. So what if a man cries. What is wrong with it? There are many ways in showing our feelings but the easiest thing to do is cry and tell your friends what you really feel. But I understand that men are really to hideous of their feelings. But I am glad that not all men are hideous. I have boy friends who are always ready to tell what they really feel.


Let us now go to the problem with women. I will just mention one problem with them. If the problem of men is that they are too hideous to show or say what they feel, A women in the other hand is to showy in showing what they feel. They are not cautious in telling somebody what they feel. They end up very frank and therefore hurting somebody. They end up hurting somebody because they are not afraid to say what they feel about certain things especially on what they see.
In other words girls are over reacting in even just a simple matter. I am not saying that I do not have this characteristic. I admit I am one of the girls who are too frank. I had even experience quarreling someone because of my frankness. But what can I do, this is the real me and I think I can not change this anymore. Same as the boys who find it hard to show their feelings to anyone or anybody else.

AN INEVITABLE DESTINY

Every life here on earth has its own ending. An ending which nobody knows except HIM. We should all accept the truth that our life on earth is just limited to a certain period of time. That is why you should spend every day of your life to the fullest. You should tell your loved ones that you love them so much because you don't know when will you die or when will they die.

I admit that I had never shown or told my parents how I love them so. It' s because I am too shy to tell them. I just tell them through the cards I give to them when there is an important occasion. As far as I remember I have never told them the sweetest line someone can receive, the phrase "I Love You". But I promise that I would tell them before I can feel that I am already gonna die.

Honestly, I am not afraid to die. But because I have not told my parents how I love them it made me the reason to have fright on dying. How I wish that I would be able to say "I love you" to them before I die. i do not want to happen that thing again when I was not able to say " I love you" and "thank you" to my grandma because it was already to late. It was too late because I was not with her side when she was about to day. I really suffered that time. I thought I can not recover but thank God he taught me how to stand up after falling down. I realized that it is also good that I did not saw my grandma dying. I think that if I was there during her last breath maybe I had collapsed. I do not want to see someone important to me dying because I know that I can not take the feeling of being lonely and missing them so much.

So I advice you to tell all the people you love the phrase "I love you" before it is already to late. You do not know when will you die or when will they die so better say it now than never because it is already too late.

A TIRESOME AFTERNOON

Sinulog is always celebrated by the Cebuanos every third Sunday of January. This year, the third Sunday is on January 21. Before this day, a procession was held and an estimate of 700 thousand people joined the procession. Thank God I was not able to join the processionbecause I cannot take this number of participants. Because of this news I can say that this year's Sinulog was the most visited. The witnesses of this year's Sinulog was so many compared to the other Sinulog celebration years back.On January 21, I was not able to attend mass because I was left in the house with my "nanay"and other relatives. My mother and my aunts was just the one who were able to attend the mass.They did not arrived in our house at the same time because they lost each other while going out of the church because there are so many people and the Basilica was so overcrowded. When they arrived we all took bath our bath because we were all expecting many visitors that day because my mother prepared a little celebration as an offering to Santo Nino.It was already lunch time but the lechon baboy we ordered have not yet arrived. At last, at exactly 11 o'clock it arrived. We decided to eat our lunch so that the moment a visitor arrive we were already thru.After eating our lunch, I decided to fetch Jezza and Kimberly from their house and invite themto eat their lunch at my house. I first went to Kim's house. When I arrived there she had not yet took a bath. I decided to just go back after fetching Jezza. When I arrived at Jezza's house, She was not there. Her mother told me to get inside and just wait for Jezza. So I did what hermother said. When Jezza arrived we immediately went to Kim's house to fetch her again. When we arrived there she was already dressed up. The 3 of us went to my house. We were just walkingbecause my house was just near their place. When we arrived, there were already visitors. Our house was so crowded. I let Jezza and Kim in and I offered them seats. I immediately preparedthem foods. After they have already eaten their lunch, they rest for a while. While they wereresting, I was also busy dressing myself. After that I told my mother that we are going to Robinson's and be right back before dark.We walked towards Robinson's place. We passed some street dancers and we stopped walking if wereally want to see one. While we were walking along San Carlos Main Campus we saw Melanie Marquez, she was still beautiful at her age. Everywhere we look was so crowded with people who were craving to see the street dance. At last, after...maybe 1 hour, we arrived at the Robinson. When we were about to enter the mall we heard shouts from the people outside the mall. When welooked back to seewho was they shouting at, we saw that it was Angel Locsin. She was so beautiful and sexy. That wasmy first time to see her in person. After that we went inside the mall we saw people sitting at every corner of the mall. They seems like tired. After a day of walking our feet felt tired, so wedecided to follow what the people was doing. After resting we decided to go out and just watch the street dancing. We saw different stars from GMA like Nadine, Jennylyn, Sheryl Cruz, Sunshine Dizonand ofcourse, Patrick Garcia. Patrick was so handsome. His skin was so fair. I wanted to see him again. Following their float was Budoy's. The famous PBA player was with him, Dondon Hontiveros, a Cebuano. He was still hansome at his age.
Many things happened to me that day. I think that was the best Sinulog in my life I ever witnessed because I was with my friends. I hope we can do it again next year.

"A BOND CALLED FRIENDSHIP"

My second home is my current school, the University of the Philippines in Cebu. Why? It is because I spend almost all of my days in school instead of spending it in my own house. But honestly, I prefer to be in school than staying in my chaotic house where all I can hear are the shouts of my brother. I wanted to stay longer in schoolnot just to study but also to find new friends. Going to school does not just mean studying but also, in making friends to everyone. In my own opinion, I cannot study well without myfriends. They are the reasons why I am still surviving in a difficult school where everyone is an intelligent individual. My friends are my inspirations. They make my day complete by making me smile and laugh with their funny jokes. Actually, majority of my friends have a good sense of humor. They also have a memorable and unique laughs.
My friends and I founded an "organization"composed of all girls. We founded this group whenwe were still in 3rd year high school. We named this group the "SJB" or the "Samahan ng mga JuniorBoys". "Junior" because we were still a 3rd student and "Boys" because this group is a circle of girls with boyish attitudes. My friends and I are very close to each other. We share are deepest secrets to each other because we have trust in each and everyone. The bond connecting us together is the bond of friendship. A bond that will not break no matter how far we are to each other. A bond with a strong foundation, love. Now that we are already in our 4th year at UP High, we now call our group the "SSB" or the "Samahan ng mga Senior Boys".
Now that we are already 4th years our graduation day is fast approaching. We will enter college and soon be parted.
Nowadays, I was already thinking if what if tomorrow is already our graduation day. If that will happen, I guess I would surely cry. I had really experienced many things with my friends during my high school days at UP. I want to treasure this memories forever so that if the day comes that we would see each other again we can still recall these mamories and laugh at it. High school life is really the best and the most exciting and memorable life of a student.Even if some says high school life is the hardest, I do not care. All I care was it was the best.I experienced happy and exciting memories during my high school. One of the unforgettable momentsI have experienced was when I met my friends. Friends who are always there for me everytime I feel down. Friends who are there to laugh with my jokes. Friends who are willing to protect me. Friends who care for me and loves me. My friends are the reason why I am still striving to maintain my grades here in UP(as well as my parents) because I do not want to be away from them. They are also the reason why I do not feel like graduating because I know that after graduation my friends and I will not follow the same path. We will soon be parted. And that really hurts me.

......BLAMED.....

Since I was still a month old, my grandma was the one who took care of me because both of my parents was still working. She took good care of me in the province. At the age of 3 years old my parents fetch me from the province. They took me from grandma because my mother decided to stop working so that can take care of me and to her other incoming children.
Even if I am away from my grandma I can still see her. She goes to our house in the city everytime there are important occasions like birthdays and ofcourse,the Sinulog. My lola is a devoted Santo Nino fan.Everytime she wanted to attend mass during the Sinulog celebration, I am always the one she wnted to be with her to guide her the right way. She also gives money to us, her grandchildren, before she leaves us. Eventhough she do not really have enough money, she still gives us what she has, even a one coin just to make us smile.
For me, my grandma is the best grandma in the whole wide world. I love her so much. I always include her to my prayers. I asked God to give her good health and a longer life.
One day, at the age of 14, we received a text message saying that my grandma was confined in a provincial hospital because of her unending cough. After receiving this news, my mother immediately went to that hospital to see if grandma is okay. I was not able to go with my mother and visit grandma because no one will be left in our house. That time, I really wanted to visit my grandma. Everynight before sleeping I always pray to God to take care of my grandma. I prayed to Him not to take grandma away from me because it will really really hurt me. When my mother arrived she said that grandma was already okay and she will soon be released from the hospital. My mother also said that grandma was looking for me and asking why I was not able to visit her last vacation as what I promised to her. Weeks later, my grandma was really released from the hospital.
On June 26, 2005, a shocking text message arrived. It says that my grandma is already dead. I was so shocked that I do not already know what to do, if i would cry or what. I took an absence for 2 days because our family is going to the province and attend grandma's burial ceremony. When we arrived at grandma's house there were many people. This people seems like staring me as I passed. I did not went immediately near the coffin. I do not want to see grandma's face. I was afraid to look at her. When my aunts saw me, they said that grandma was always looking for me. They also asked me why I was not able to go there last vacation. I was speechless and tears started to form in my eyes, ready to fall. I can feel that the people surrounding me were blaming me of grandma's death. I do not want to look at the face of grandma because I am afraid if her eyes will open suddenly and asking me why I did not made my promise to her. I did not look at grandma's face until before the day of her burial. I looked at her face and and I cried so hard as I can. I asked myself why I loose my favorite grandma, my 2nd mother and the grandma I loved the most. I asked myself if am I really the reason of grandma's death. Her face was so sad and she was so thin. I thought to myself after seeing grandma that even if she is not her with me she will always be my favorite grandma.